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It is not a long distance to the ground
from the crossbar of a Roman cross. The blood that coursed down
his contorted frame pooled in the dirt just below his feet.
It is not a significant distance from Bethlehem to the hill
called Golgotha just outside Jerusalem, where three crosses
stood driven in the ground.
The thirty plus years that had elapsed
between the manger and the cross, however, had spanned an
incredible distance.
It was Mary, Jesus’ mother, who first
perceived how far she had come from that difficult, joyous,
lonesome, attended by the hosts of Heaven night so long ago in a
borrowed stable. Her heart had raced with joy and excitement as
her first-born son had entered the world and everything and
everyone had grown quiet in uncertain amazement. Few knew or
understood that God had come, in flesh and blood. While Heaven’s
choir spoke of peace, and lowly shepherds bowed in worship, the
world hurried on in busy inattentiveness.
Here, now, while this scene of unfolding
agony breaks her heart, the riotous crowd mills about, jostling,
cursing, gambling for his meager garments, and the angelic
chorus is silent. There is no voice from Heaven, no sudden
intervention of the miraculous, no angel army sweeping down the
corridors of the cosmos to right this wrong.
John could not speak. His eyes were wet
with tears of anguish. Had the Savior really lloved him most and
yet, somehow, he had missed the verbal cues that would have
prepared him for this hour? Could he, should he, have done more?
He might have armed himself as had Peter, striking a blow
against the injustice and reprehensible nature of these acts now
perpetrated in his presence. Surely he could have done
something, anything, to stop this madness. He was a thousand
miles from where he wanted to be, from where he thought he would
be. Fear and rage battled within him and he was frozen in an
impenetrable darkness of despair.
On the cross, the Savior gave no hint, by
voice or movement, of the war he was waging -- a war of pain
versus peace. When he spoke, the words were quiet and measured.
Even in the midst of these incontrovertible circumstances his
actions and reactions were not unlike He had always been. The
pain, from the rudely driven spikes tearing flesh and crushing
bone, could not match the peace that came from knowing -- from
Bethlehem to Calvary, His life of obedience was unblemished. He
endured the pain brought to Him from the evident hatred of those
He lloved most; and peace enveloped Him because He knew He
would soon utter the words, “it is finished.”
Reflecting on all those years took only a
flash of His infinite mind. He knew well every minute, relished
every second, from His incarnation to the intensity of this
white-hot hour.
He remembered every afternoon in the
carpentry shop with Joseph, making furniture from the very trees
he had created, every morning at the feet of Mary as she
diligently taught Him the words and precepts of the very Law He
had written; every night alone in His tiny room, cocooned by the
very universe He had spoken into existence.
All those hours, days, weeks, years with
the twelve; those unsearchable moments when thousands were fed
with meager fare, raging
storms were silenced with a word, blind and lame and sick
recovered from their maladies, and death was replaced with life,
now flooded His mind with satisfaction.
Perhaps it was visible to no one else. The
leaders and teachers in the Temple could not see it when He
answered their questions at the tender age of twelve. Along the
road to Bethany where Lazarus had been recalled to life, near
Capernaum where He had often demonstrated His power and spoken
the Truth only to find rejection, in the sand at the shore of
the lake where He and His closest friends gathered for a sunrise
breakfast, in the heart of Judas when he left the supper early,
and in the eye of Pilate who cowardly failed to defend what he
knew to be true – they had all missed it. But He had seen it,
the shadow of a cross.
It was hard to see that incredible
night when the angels of Heaven proclaimed His birth – He had
come to give His life a ransom – and in the manger – the shadow
of a cross.
© Weaver 2002
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